To My Body

Hello old friend, 

Sometimes I look at you and I do not know what to say. 

With each passing moment I know you a little less. 

It’s been a while I looked at you;

I mean, truly looked at you 

Now whenever I catch a reflection of you,

I see something a little different. 

You awe me in so many ways. 

You are amazing in exceeding ramifications. 

A little magic here and some more love there and a new you emerges, 

I must admit it’s hard to keep up with you. 

So many changes 

Great and not so great, alluring and sickening 

Healthy and not so much 

How do I keep up? 

I keep discovering beauty marks, remarkable! 

There was a time your skin was supple, pretty elastic, really squishy. 

Then it turned rigid, smooth to the touch, firm, still soft. 

Now you are a body with varying degrees of firmness and softness. 

There was a time you had a normal skin,

You also never broke a sweat no matter how much you ran

Or played or did anything strenuous. 

There was also a time you had an oily skin.

I would always joke that you produced enough to fry eggs. 

Later on  you had begun sweating, you were changing.  

Lately you sweat a lot, even for something as simple as a brisk walk,

you run out of breath ever so easily. 

A long time ago your breathing was shallow and fast, 

then slow and deep and now, its just right. 

Your chemical components  are changing, your hormones have evolved.

You're at the brink of womanhood

and we both do not understand what is going on. 

You gain and lose weight swiftly, 

Rosy cheeks, then a sharp jawline, then rosy cheeks, on and on it goes. 

A growth spurt here, a plateau there, on and on it goes. 

A smooth face here, a breakout there on and on it goes. 

A nose bleed here, an ear bleed there on and on it goes, 

Clavicles protruding and other times concealed slightly. 

Once your legs were smooth, now they are hairy. 

Sometimes you can barely eat and other times you can’t get enough. 

Your interest in many things are transient. 

You've got PCOS with varying symptoms I am coming to understand. 

Most importantly, you house an incredible soul, a beautiful spirit, a sound mind 

Hey old friend, I don't think it will hurt getting to know you better, 

I am aware change is inevitable but please take it easy, 

It’s hard to keep up, 

I can’t get a hold of you.