In wrath I swore to hide

So distraught, and because life goes on, I must pace.It’s a longshot yet this is how I evade disgrace.

Perhaps a slice through the epidermisOr maybe an incision to the chestHow much must I poke?How deep must I delve?How do I surmount these layers?How do I evade being engulfed by darkness?How do I overcome it?Where is light when I need it?How do I make my way through this mess?A gush, an ooze, a seep, I’m sick!Where are you?I have expended a great many resourcesI have rummaged through every portalAnd now the body is all that is left.A lot of collateral damageAll because I seek after you.

Let's get to the root of the matter

Too much to doToo much to tryToo much, too manyAnd yet nothing is done about itSo much unrest,So much turmoil,Why don’t you push yourself?Why don't you just do it?Why do you ponder on what should be done?Get up now! Get on!But you indulge in short lived impulses.“I don't get drunk”, you say,But your speech is slurredYour sight is blurredNow that is one too manyI hope you don’t find yourselfIn the unending loop ofToo many to do and too little done

"Try having bigger dreams, even if it breaks, even if you wake up."  J-Hope (Jung Hoesok)

‘Insidious is blind inception...’ NF (mansion)  

I’ve prayed.I’ve fasted.I’ve cried.

Were I brave, I would walk away from you,I would turn my back on the pastI would reach out to my futureI would break the vicious cycle

I yearn to learn;

Nappy and Matted