Someone I lost

There’s a type of pain that could kill,
A kind of grief that could ebb life.

Such pain is despair.

Suffering and unimaginable hurt;

That’s what I felt when I lost you.
I watched as Time stood still,

And memories flushed my mind,
My heart constricted, I fought for air,

My sight blurred, and all I could ask,

Was “Why you?”.

There’s a saying “Hope keeps you alive.”.
Maybe I hoped too little or maybe I hoped too much,

But it wasn’t enough to hold on to you
I've tried to cry, but I can’t.

This pain is blinding and it’s got nowhere to go.

I feel it struggle to be let out

But I can’t let go
How do I get over someone I love?

How do I deal with watching my expectations crumble?
How do I stop searching for someone I lost?